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Lets Try This Again!

1 Jul

Wow, I am SO sorry I disappeared again for another 3 months!  I promise it won’t happen again!

 

Life flipped upside down and inside out over the past year and I just didn’t have time for blogging, or cleaning . . . cooking . . . sleeping.  Ahem, anyway, I’m back.  Again.

Having started a new chapter in life and making several very large and somewhat scary changes, I’ve decided to take this blog in a slightly different direction as well.  I will still share craft how-tos, recipes and fun activities for kids, but there will be more to it than that.  More glimpses into my life and my family and more story telling.  It will be fun!

Due to health issues I’ve become a stay home mom, which is something I never expected for myself.  I loved working (even though I spent more time at the office than I did at home) I’d work all day, pick up the kids from school and daycare, cook supper and then I’d be spent.  Most nights I was in bed before the boys!  I didn’t feel like I was living my life, but rather floating through the motions of life.  I felt like someone was pulling me around, forcing me to move.  If I didn’t have that pull, I wouldn’t have been able to get out of bed and do the things I needed to do!

Every weekend I would do my best to enjoy the boys (Big A just turned 9!  Little C isn’t so little anymore at 4 1/2)  If I was having a “good day” I would try to fit in as much as possible.  “Hey kids, lets go to the zoo, have a picnic at the park, go fishing and then come home and play 16 board games!” I felt like I needed to make up for all the nights I was in bed by 7:30.   If I was having a “bad day” (which are more frequent than the latter) I would let the kids watch too much tv, we’d lay around in our pajamas all day.  I felt like I needed those 2 days to recover from the week so that I could get up on Monday and do it all over again.  That is no way to live.

After a LOT of thinking, worrying and number crunching, the Hubby and I decided it would be best if I quit my job and focused on taking care of myself.  The hope was that if I wasn’t working 40-50 hours a week and exhausting myself daily that I’d have fewer “bad days”.  I haven’t had much time to test that theory because a little over a week ago I had a procedure (RFA or Radio Frequency Ablation)  to burn off the nerves in 6 places in my spine to try and reduce the amount of pain I can feel.  That procedure is miserable!    I had the RFA about 3 years ago in 2 places in my spine and it took weeks to feel normal, only to discover later on that the doctor I was seeing at the time had not done the procedure in the right places but that is a whole different story!

The good thing is that I am home with my boys, good day or bad day, I can enjoy them and watch them play and grow.  I feel like I’ve missed out a lot due to my health and my pain, having to miss excursions and day trips or cancel plans because it’s too hot outside.  (Heat and humidity make me physically ill due to my Fibromyalgia)

Now I can focus on being a wife and a mother and on understanding my pain and disabilities with the hopes of my life better.

the 2 reasons I am here

the 2 reasons I am here

 

 

 

 

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